It's been a tough few days. Hmph ~ actually, this pregnancy has brought more ups and downs emotionally than either of my two previous ones. I'm grumpy and have mood swings - a LOT, I am sure my husband would agree! Grrr....I find myself short on patience frequently, and snapping over the tiniest things.
We started potty training Jacob last week. I mean that in a very loose way ~ I have no idea what I'm doing, and frankly, he seems to sense that. He's gone on the little potty once, in one week, and dozens of other times on the floor, the couch, chair, in his pants, etc. I can see him squirm, hold his privates, and run around - all the while holding in his pee, then refuses to sit on the potty and/or go there. Yesterday I put a diaper back on him to give us both a rest. I know there is no "right" or "wrong" way to do this, but wow...it's exhausting! I feel tied down, stuck, and it feels like we will never get there. I realize that these are irrational statements, and that no kid has ever graduated from high school in diapers, but geesh~
So I'm getting frustrated over things that are pretty much out of my control. I guess it's a natural part of pregnancy ~ and typical (for me) for this point too. I remember feeling overwhelmed by "the future" with my other two. This time it's...."how will I care for 3 young boys? how will I keep my sanity? How will I work? What will we do for daycare? Will we be able to...?" and on and on. Then the negativity comes in ~ circular thoughts on how much work all of this is, how I can never keep up, I'm slacking, I'm exhausted, etc. Satan sure has a way of sinking his claws & teeth in after he has a hold, doesn't he? WOW. It's a gripping, overwhelming feeling.
But....the Lord makes every morning new, doesn't He? Thank you, God, for that! What a sense of peace I have today. I know that the Lord is going to provide everything we need for our growing family ~ physically and emotionally. I just have to let go, and let Him do so!
I have tons more I could add, but for now.....we are off to get ready for pediatrician appts for the boys. Fun times!
Beth
I am Wife to one and Mama to four. I married the only boy I ever loved, and was given four more that make my heart burst every single day. I love doing laundry, attempting to live frugally, and figuring out how to help my boys expend their boundless energy. And I'm still trying to figure out exactly how to respond to, "Wow, you have your hands full!"
My Main Man
Tim & I have known each other since we were in high school (and yet, he married me anyway!). He's smart, loves books, and always has me laughing. He is my best friend, and the most amazing father to our sons. Cliche, but true: he is my other, better half, and I thank God for him every single day!
Number One
Jacob made me a Mama in June of '06. At 5, he is the oldest of our crew of blue. He loves trains, swimming, reading books, and going on adventures.
Number Two
Following his big brother by 18 months, Wyatt is our Christmas Eve babe. He is full of spunk, the Middle Child, and all boy. He loves sweets, horses, and making a mess.
Number Three
Every bit a surprise, but loved with every fiber of my being, Nathaniel joined our family in September of '09. He is our little spit-fire, and has more energy than than our oldest two combined. Nate is a Mama's boy, has quick hands, loves playing ball and climbing on everything, and trying to keep up with his brothers. Most days he succeeds! We often wonder just what he will be "teaching" in his new role: Big Brother!
Number Four
Everett is our youngest, born at 41.2 weeks in March '11 . He was the biggest of our guys at birth: 9 lbs, 2 oz and 22 inches. He is easy-going, cuddly, and sweet-smelling. He loves to eat Cheerios, be outside, and be held by Mama. He is already being tested as The Baby by his Big Brothers ~ and he certainly can hold his own. It is hard to believe that his presence makes us a family of six!
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